Hello Everyone!!!
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As the year 2019 wraps up, I’ve been in reflection mode for several weeks now. Hmm…what a year! 2019 has taught me so many things, it has stretched me beyond the limits that I placed myself in, it has shown me some character flaws that I needed to ditch ASAP, it has shown me that there is comfort and joy at the end of every storm, hurt and disappointment.
Most importantly, 2019 has made me come to the final conclusion that I need to be absolutely submitted to God in all things and at all times, if I want to live a purposeful life…no assumptions, no living on yesterday’s revelation, no excuses…I need God to guide me every step of the way…every minute of the day…I need help and there is nothing wrong with admitting that I need help.
I am humbled by the way God showed up and out for me this year. At one point, it seemed like everything was craving in on me. On the outside, I was good…good job, beautiful family, a wonderful support system, amazing ministry…yet on the inside, I felt like I was falling apart…I felt stuck! For a long time, I did all that I could to silence the cry on my inside. I didn’t understand it, what was the inner turmoil about? I wondered if I was just being ungrateful? Shouldn’t I have been content, after all God had been too good!
I was unaware at the time that it was a call from God to step out and come higher. I had gotten stuck in a comfort zone, I had settled and made excuses for where I had found myself at that time. I kept fighting the prompting until I could fight no more, I had come to my wits end, I had no choice but to surrender. With arms high and head bowed in submission, I finally opened up to God, my father and allowed him to take his place. It wasn’t easy, I didn’t want to hear it all because it required more from me…I already felt like I was doing too much…the struggle of a forerunner/visionary.
I started 2019 with the painful loss of my uncle and beloved sister in the Lord, so much tears, questions and heartache…thank God for the comfort of the Holy Spirit, it is real! In no time, the tears were replaced with smiles of their memories. The demands of work, marriage, ministry and motherhood were intense but the recovered perfectionist in me wouldn’t admit it. I was burnt out and overwhelmed, mood swings became the norm and other challenges with finances and work became to arise. I had neglected the place of fellowship with my father and I was running on empty. Have you ever been there before? It is NOT anyone’s dream destination.
When I finally threw in the towel on my selfish endeavors, I realized that I really didn’t have to fight, the fight of the believer is a grace good fight. I was exerting unnecessary energy in the wrong things and direction. I humbled myself and went back to my first love and he cleaned me up and rejuvenated me. Resting in him gave me clarity, I had peace. And things began to pick up as I made a conscious effort to hear his voice and follow his lead. That is all God wants, a heart totally surrendered to him. You don’t have to figure it all out on your own, you have a helper…the Holy Spirit.
The greatest lesson that I learned this year was to REST! Oh boy, resting for me has always been such a challenge. But rest is essential, it is only when you rest that God can move; he won’t compete with you. It is only when you surrender that God can take over. Who am I not to rest if God himself rested after the completion of creation…even Jesus rested during his days on Earth. Rest is much more than taking naps, it is a destination of the heart…it is a result of absolute trust in the Lord.
So as I bid 2019 farewell in the next couple of weeks, I thank God for the lessons learned, I thank him for the battles won, I thank him for his blessings, I thank him for peace, safety, protection, favor, family, loved ones and even those who opposed me. It has been an interesting ride and I am so looking forward to 2020!!!
I encourage you to take some time to reflect on the year 2019 before it ends. Note lessons learned and note the thing that you’ll have to leave behind. Enter 2020 light, ready to receive all that God has prepared for you!
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To all my consistent readers even when I didn’t post consistently, thank you so much for your support! To all my new readers, you are welcome! Be sure to catch up on older posts. I look forward to doing more in 2020!
This is my last post for 2019, I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance! See you in 2020!!!
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Stay blessed!
– Bunmi Adebiyi
If you can relate to the things written above, I want you to know that I understand how you feel. It is okay, don’t feel bad. It is okay to be at that point now, but you don’t have to stay there. Confusion, doubt, shame, and depression do not have to be your companions; they’re the worse company to have. Breakup with those emotions and choose to be happy and free. You have the power to create the type of life that you’ve always desired. That power becomes activated when you make the decision to come into the right relationship with the right person.
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